By Orit
November 25, 2007
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Don't make me write a column.
No. Please don't make me. Just don't make me write again. Don't make me write about Olmert, Abbas, Bush, and all those bozos. I'm sick of it.
I've tried it already. I have tried to write political columns explaining the dangers of giving more land away. They don't work. They just don't.
I tried it when I was in Gush Katif, through my Disengagement Diaries, revealing the honest life of the residents who were victims of their cruel, dishonest leaders. What good did those columns do? Nothing. Gush Katif has been destroyed, its residents made refugees, and the policies and ideologies that have made the destruction possible continue unchecked.
I know Annapolis is coming up and some people may wonder why I hardly talk about it. Because I know that all the mechanisms are in place to ensure that whatever is going to happen, is going to happen. Olmert is a stooge of Condi who is a stooge of Bush who is a stooge of I don't know what. Olmert has the backing of people in high places, like the ivory tower, the halls of the UN, and the media outlets, who will coddle him if he gives more land away. Europe is on the Palestinian side. So are most Jewish leaders who are leading the pro-Palestinian movement. (Just read any liberal Jewish newspaper in the US.)
And when I write about politics I'm really only writing to people who agree with me anyway, so what good does it do?
If the people of Israel and the Jewish people want to destroy themselves, so who am I to try and stop it? Let them destroy themselves. They're getting what they deserve.
In the meantime, let me live my life the way I want. Let me at least enjoy my final years in this country.
I feel like I'm in Gush Katif all over again, only instead of being in the Jewish outpost of Gaza, I'm in the Jewish outpost of the Middle East. The Gush Katif settlers lived their fullest until the end. Maybe that's what I should do? Let me not fret and get depressed over everyone's stupidities.
I've finally learned to stop caring so damn much, and it feels great! I even don't get upset when I talk to leftists! It's wonderful. My life is no longer a constant hell. I'm traveling the world and the country as a journalist, seeing beautiful places, meeting creative people, eating delicious food.
And when I'm not working, I'm writing my novel. I guess that's my only comfort: my novel. I'm not joining rallies; I'm not writing op-eds; I'm indulging in a creative work that gives me selfish fulfillment because it expresses my values and longings in a heartfelt, artistic way. And maybe, if anyone in the liberal publishing world will agree to publish such a controversial, pro-settler work, I can make an impact on this country, the Jewish people, and the world -- but on my terms, through my own enjoyment.
So with Annapolis coming up, and things about to go down, I'm going to enjoy what little freedom and happiness I have left.
That's all I can do, I think, and that's all I can ask people to do -- unless I can get some takers who will storm the Knesset with me.
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